1. I think you're pathetic
You read your enchantments
Like scientific fact
You're nothing more than folklore
2. I think you're stupid
You use your body to get your rewards
Did you ever think
It isn't worth it?
3. I think you're mean
You tell lies and overdramatize mysterious stories
Just to make me hate him
Just to make me question us
4. I think you're amazing
But you're careless and simple
; and I love that
But you don't realize that:
; the short texts
; the late arrivals
; the excuses
; the time away
i've always been someone
quite certain of herself
i was broken
shattered
hurt
passionate
alive?
why am i questioning
all that i've always been
i am confused
disorientated
hurt
passionate
dead?
was i ever everything i claimed
or have i lived ashamed
of being exactly the type of girl
i hate?
1. What started out as love,
Often ends in despair.
People turning to hold you,
Only to walk away.
2. I was a newborn deer,
Walking on shaking legs,
Fallen to the ground,
I swore to never stand.
3. Did you have to take me,
On such a journey to,
Make me think I'd dare.
Did I dare?
4. I bet one day you'll laugh,
At the girl naive enough to love,
And I will too.
I'll pretend it doesn't hurt.
5. Because it doesn't matter,
If you love me now.
If I take that first step.
If the deer attempts to walk again.
6. I don't deserve you,
I never will.
1. I think you're pathetic
You read your enchantments
Like scientific fact
You're nothing more than folklore
2. I think you're stupid
You use your body to get your rewards
Did you ever think
It isn't worth it?
3. I think you're mean
You tell lies and overdramatize mysterious stories
Just to make me hate him
Just to make me question us
4. I think you're amazing
But you're careless and simple
; and I love that
But you don't realize that:
; the short texts
; the late arrivals
; the excuses
; the time away
i've always been someone
quite certain of herself
i was broken
shattered
hurt
passionate
alive?
why am i questioning
all that i've always been
i am confused
disorientated
hurt
passionate
dead?
was i ever everything i claimed
or have i lived ashamed
of being exactly the type of girl
i hate?
1. What started out as love,
Often ends in despair.
People turning to hold you,
Only to walk away.
2. I was a newborn deer,
Walking on shaking legs,
Fallen to the ground,
I swore to never stand.
3. Did you have to take me,
On such a journey to,
Make me think I'd dare.
Did I dare?
4. I bet one day you'll laugh,
At the girl naive enough to love,
And I will too.
I'll pretend it doesn't hurt.
5. Because it doesn't matter,
If you love me now.
If I take that first step.
If the deer attempts to walk again.
6. I don't deserve you,
I never will.
I feel like I'm losing touch,
I feel like I'm falling in.
With the people all around me,
Stopping and embracing sin.
Not the sin of the devil,
But the sin of the heart.
And I finally know now,
That I'm going to fall apart.
When people care to much,
About the world inside their head,
Their daughter lay in her room,
Wishing she was dead.
I saw your heart on the ground broken and bleeding. I picked it up and held it close. I took it home and mended it with a little bit of love and a little bit of care. I kept it and nursed it back to health, and when it was healed I walked to your house through snow and rain; a million miles to just give it back to you.
People may have noticed that I've started uploading some poetry back to the site. That's because I've started writing again. I will be getting a new camera soon too, so I'll hopefully be doing more shoots and some band photography while I'm at it. In all honesty, I don't update this journal anymore, so feel free to just come over to my tumblr. However, I will try to keep posting all of my poetry and photography here as well.
I have a concept for the next shoot I will be doing, but theres needs to be plenty more planning because I want everything in this set to be extremely strong, especially since one scrapped photo could ruin the entire thing! It's very exciting and I hope everyone likes it - I won't say too much about it yet though.
I did an old photoshoot with an extremely old and dear friend of mine quite a while ago and I've just come to edit them properly and post them (I might have re-did some of them, I'm unsure) so go ahead to check out the 'Memory Lane' set - inspired by... well, life and the nights I've spent awake. I hope everyone is having great day
So after an entire day, I'm still having problems sleeping (not that I've really attempted it yet). I've done a couple of edits tonight between recording my friend's track and I really hope everyone enjoys them. There should be a few more shots to come, and well as new edits and alternative versions of some of my old deviations. Look forward to an all new set within the next two weeks.
Until then friends,
Love,
Vivacity.