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there was never a right time
for love to find me
and when it tries
all i can do is shy away.
the life i left behind
when i turned my back
on those who hurt me
haunts me still.
you make me laugh
but i know you’ll make me cry
you make me smile
but one day you’ll make me die.
all the assumptions
linger in the back of my mind
until i can’t
think anymore.
i’m too scared to love
but i’m afraid not to
because i don’t want to lose you
but i don’t want you either.
it’s a confusing concept
and it confounds me still
but i’m trying to understand it
i like your voice.
the other day i stared
into the dark
and i closed my eyes
i like your touch.
my night was long
as i tossed and turned
until i fell asleep
i miss your face.
so close to mine
i started to dream
but when i awoke
i forgot it.
or at least i tried.